Current mood:	blah
Current music:	Reel Big Fish ~ Everything Sucks

I'm doing a miserable job of sleeping right now. Too much on my mind I think.

Could someone please remind me that what I want in life is going to be tough. That nothing will be coming easy so I should just accept that already.

School is great, but I'm going to have to work 2 jobs and take out more student loans if I want a chance at taking a few classes. Work is a bitch, but to pay the bills, sometimes you have to put up with the bullshit. Love is... well. Maybe love's just impossible. But the rest of it should be doable.

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Life sure hasn't been making things easy lately. A month ago, a stuffed animal I'd had since I was a baby was destroyed thanks to a shaky bookcase and a hot light bulb. A couple days ago, a couple of figurines (some given to me from my great grandmother from Hungary) fell off a shelf and shattered on my dresser while I was at work.

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I can't decide if I've made the right choices in my life lately. At the time, sure they seemed right. Or at least they seemed harmless enough. And yet now I look at them, and I wonder if I had really considered anything before I made the choices I did. And how much am I willing to give up to see those choices through, even if perhaps I should reconsider. Bah. I know I won't though. Because regardless of whether it was the right choice or not, I'm determined to see it through. I can't give up now, too much at stake. Dammit. Sometimes I'm so damn stubborn.




Will somebody please come save my from myself?