So there's this person. We'll call them A. I've realized that somehow, A had gotten a special set of rules applied to them. With most of my friends, I'm pretty upfront. I don't put up with bullshit, with drama, or with being led around. I hate it when someone tries to ignore what's really wrong, or they pretend like if nobody acknowledges it, it'll get better.

Hello! We all see the damn elephant. Just deal with it!

And yet... when A does it, I don't say anything. I might make an offhanded comment, but I don't call them on it. And last night I realized that the reason that A gets special rules is because I'm afraid that if I bring up the elephant, they're going to clam up and I'm going to loose them. Or worse yet, I'm going to hear something that I'd rather ignore. Kinda hypocritical, don't you think?

Do you realize what a pain in the ass this is? I see the elephant! You see the elephant! And yet... here we are pretending that there no god damn elephant.

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I'm going to work. Maybe the mindlessness of that will bring some time to think and figure out what I want to do.